Thursday, June 26, 2014

A Dream?

            The cool cement was rough against my bare feet as I walked alone in darkness. The normally brilliantly decorated sky was covered by a thick layer of clouds and the streetlights stood out in harsh comparison.  The sprinkling rain enveloped me, eventually soaking m through, but I didn't mind.  A firefly blinked in and out of existence across the street.  Standing still for a moment I closed my eyes and listened.  I don’t think anyone realizes, but the forest is just as alive at night as it is in the day.  It seemed to whisper to itself as the gentle breeze moved through the branches and dropped dew from their leaves.  There were two frogs by the pond harmonizing with the crickets.
As I opened my eyes, I noticed a tall figure in the shadows.  I hesitated to call out to him; how dare I interrupt the night?  How could I?  I didn't belong here I belong in the light.  Instead, I took a few steps closer standing under the streetlamp.  In turn, he stepped forward revealing himself.  His hair was dark brown and curled about his ears.  His eyes were a darker shade yet they seemed to twinkle as brightly as the stars absent from the sky.  “I have never seen a girl more beautiful,” his voice whispered to me.  “Please tell me you are not an angel, or else I would have to lose you to God.  But you must be, for surely a mortal as beautiful has never existed.”
“I assure you,” I told him, “I am completely mortal.  But are you?  I fear my heart may be deceiving me and this is all a dream.”
“No, my love, I am real,” he said taking my hand.  Placing my other on his cheek, I stared deep into his eyes.
“My God, you are real,” I whispered beside myself.  I have often dreamed of men like him only to be heartbroken when I awoke.  His free arm had draped itself across my hip and his hand rested against my lower back.  I could feel a tingling sensation through the fabric of my dress where his hand touched. 
Pressing himself closer to me, he smiled, his eyes taking in my face.  Leaning his head down towards me, he stopped inches from my lips as if asking permission.  I raised my head towards him in response, and he brought our lips together in gentle caresses. 
We stood under that light and talked together the sky stared to lighten and I told him I needed to go.  “But I must see you again!” 
“Walk me home,” I said smiling up at him, and he gladly followed.  Our hands fit together like puzzle pieces, I noticed as we walked up my driveway.  I told him to wait at the door as I snuck in to find a pen.  He didn't said a word as I wrote my number on the palm of his hand.  “Will I see you soon?” I asked.
“Absolutely.”  He leaned down for one last kiss before running off back into the shadows.

I shrink away from turning the light on now, for it means the night is truly over, but if I do not write this down I fear I will wake again only to find a broken heart.  I will see you soon my love.  Soon.

Monday, June 9, 2014

The Beast Below



            He could feel the tension in the air around him as the crew prepared for his dive.  His whole life had come to this; it’s what he had been preparing for since birth.  Today was his day.  As he gazed past the camera crew and to the horizon, he remembered all the years he spent in training, all the days studying and practicing, all the moments he thought about quitting.  And to think, he only got the gig of his life because of a little computer chip, a tracker.
            A group of scientists had been monitoring a nine-foot great white somewhere in the Pacfic.  Apparently where was a blip in the data, then it appeared that the shark had died.  However, when they found the tracker washed up on the coast of Australia, there was no shark, dead or alive.  So, here he was at the location of the blip.  Most likely, there will be nothing there; if it was a “sea monster” it would have moved on by now.  But, after the scientists had lost another shark in this area, they decided this was its hunting ground.  At least, that’s what he thought they said.  They used words too big for his mind to comprehend; he was in it for the dive of his life, not the data.
            So anyway, there he was on the deck of the vessel, staring out into the distance reminiscing when they told him it was time to go.  He would never admit it, but his heart started to race as he put on the suit; what if something went wrong?  What if it ate him?
            As the designated time approached, he took his position on the edge of the deck.  “Three, two…NOW!”  He felt himself sinking in the pressure suit as the water engulfed him.  Finally, he was home.  The fears that had choked him on the deck seemed to wash away with the tide.  On the deck, he couldn’t seem to remember his objectives, but now the water cleared his mind and he could focus again.
            Switching on the light on his helmet, he gazed at his surroundings.  He had not yet sunk down to the cliff where he was supposed to be.  “Tommy.  Tommy, you read?”
            “Copy.  Not on the cliff yet – maybe thirty for forty more feet,” he said into the mic taped to the inside of his helmet.  A few sharks glided past as he kept sinking closer to the shelf.  He watched a school of fish swimming towards him.  They parted like the Red Sea around him and he found himself encased in a bubble of fish.  Finally, he was able to call up to the boat that he had hit the cliff.  “How much cord do I have left?” he asked.
            “About…one and a half miles,” one of the crew replied.
            “Is that enough to make it down to the next cliff?” he asked.
            There was a slight pause before the next answer came through, “Yeah, there should be just enough.”
            “Good, ’cause there’s nothing here,” he said looking around again.  Just rock.
            It would have looked like a slow motion movie if you saw him propel himself off the cliff; the water held him back.  He began to slowly sink again, and suddenly the cliff fell away to reveal a cave in the rock face.  “Guys, did you know there’s a cave here?”
            “A what?!”
            “A cave, damit, a cave!”  He was ashamed to say he was losing his cool.  If they didn’t know there was a cave, what else didn’t they know?  He had jumped on this offer as soon as they gave it to him; it was one of the best dives of the century.  But his brother had warned him to research it first, know the company.  Now he could be about to die.
            The static in his mic flared again as one of the men came back on, “Sorry, we didn’t have the cave there.  We had it as being filled…the computers say it’s filled now.”
            “What do you mean filled?” he asked as he touched down on the rock, his voice wavering slightly.  The light on his helmet couldn’t penetrate the darkness of the cave. 
            “Damit, the computer says there’s no cave there Tommy!  It’s filled!” the voice said.
            “Well, shit.”  Suddenly, the was a great rumbling beneath his feet that shook him to his core.  “You guys feel that?”
            “We’ve got huge waves up here -- is it, Tommy?” the voice cut out.
            “Hello?!” he desperately called up.
            “--ommy!”
            “Tell my brother I love him!” he said.  He could feel himself being pulled back up to the boat.  The rumbling grew as he was ever so slowly pulled up.  Then something burst from the cave. 
            The only word he could use to describe it was “huge.”  Fucking huge.  It reminded him slightly of the Chinese water dragon myths.  It looked like a giant eel at least forty feet long with gills stretching four feet along its neck.  Its body was covered in greenish-blue shimmering scales and it had slit nostrils at least a foot long and flaring at the metal smell of his suit.  There were no eyes to speak of on its head, but just looking at its jaws could kill you.  Each tooth was about a foot and there were three rows that he could see.  Coming out from behind the first gill were three tentacle-like structures trailing behind it.  Above these was a six-inch hole which must have been its ear. 
“PULL ME UP -- FOR GOD’S SAKE PULL ME UP!” he screamed, his voice breaking and cracking over and over as he sob the phrase repeatedly.  The cord began pulling him up as fast as the machine on the boat would let it.  As the creature lunged toward his feet, mouth open, he pulled his legs up to his chest as the cord pulled him out of the way.  He could feel the shock as the massive jaws snapped shut just behind him.  He could see the light begin to flicker through the water as he got closer and close to the surface.  Soon he was able to hear the radio communications again.
“Tommy, we’re getting you up.  There was a cave there!  Something was in it!”
“NO SHIT!” he screamed into the mic. 
“Tommy, I–”
“No, shut up.  Listen – this thing is coming up behind me.  You need to get the motor ready,” he said, his voice surprisingly more steady.
“To–”
“NOW!”  With one last yank from the crew aiding the machine, Tommy was flung out of the water, curving through the air.  He could feel himself hit the deck and quickly took his helmet off. 
“Tommy–”
“Not now.  Start the engine!  GO, GO!”  Just in time, the ship jumped forward.  Half of the monster’s body was propelled out of the water, mouth open ready to swallow the ship right where they had been anchored.  Now, the crew, frightened for their lives, helped dump unnecessary supplies over the railing or at the monster.  Eventually, they were able to lose it in the tide.

When they had gotten back to the base, no one believed them.  The doctors claimed it was dehydration or heat.  The scientists claimed that had no proof; the computer had been thrown off board.  Years later, many members of the crew had taken residence in mental institutions, others had committed suicide.  Tommy gave up his passion of diving, vowing never to swim again.  To this day he lives in fear of the monster, afraid of taking a shower as if it might crawl out of the pipes.  

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

The Disease I Call Love

You caught the disease
The disease with no cure
Thank God it’s not contagious
Scarier than the best horror movie

I pray for you
Hope for the cure
But I know when it dies
It leaves only scars

Wish you could be pure again
Wish you could be normal
It scares me what you do for it
How it makes you feel

Some learn to live with it
But only very few
Hope you can be lucky
Keep it close and new

Most have it ripped from them
It never truly dies
Lives in the scars it leaves
There is no cure

Wish this thing never existed
Wish we could be at peace
But now all you talk about is him
All you can see is his face

This is what it does to you
This is how it’s fatal
It destroys who you are
Replaces you with thoughts of him

But sometimes, God save me
I wish it was contagious
Wish I could suffer with you
Suffer in your bliss

I wish I could feel that happiness you live with
Wish I could have someone like him
Most dream of it since they were young
Most don’t realize they romanticize it

They don’t realize what it really is
What love is
It destroys
But it also creates

There is good and bad to everything in the universe
I cannot think of any example
More deserving

Than love

Years I Lost To You

I slipped up today
Called her you

She stared blankly into my eyes
Asked who you were

I could not say anything
My throat was too dry

How can you stand
Living with the way we went

How can you not come back
Knowing I'm still here

I miss you
Want you back

But I won't go
You need to come

My pride is in the way
You were the one

You should apologize
I did nothing wrong

Why did you fight
What did I do

Petty things sometimes
Can end the wonderful

Then I think
What if we had never met

Stuck together for years
No choice but to be friends

If the school was bigger
I wonder if we would even have talked

Cruel tricks of fate
That led me to lose you

We were young and naive
Yet I miss you still

I think of you often
They would try distracting me if they knew

Thinking now
Our friendship was never ideal

Yet I wish we could have ended it gentler
Fights leave scars

We met on the street
I tried conversation

If not required by norm
I would have run

You seemed fine
You hide it better than I

Or maybe you are whole
I was the one left with the broken heart

A part of me will always belong to you
But now I need to let go

I will never forget you
But I need you to know I forgive you

Please
Don't forget me

They don't know
I cannot tell them

So I must tell you
Everything

I'm not asking for you to fix me
Just understand

It could never have worked
Yet I still find myself crying

I'm sorry

even the color purple reminds me of you