Story of a Boy

I was a monster

Did things to people

Wouldn’t wish it on anybody

I was blind

Their faces would beg me to stop

I made their life hell

They called out to me

I was deaf

I never noticed the pain I was causing them

Even though to others is was evident

I did not have the empathy to stop

I could not feel

I did this to you

You forgave me

I did not understand

You helped me

You could see beyond what I knew

You saw I had a soul

You reached down into hell

And pulled me up

I remember when we first met

You sitting in the bleachers of the football stadium

The light shown on your hair just right

It looked like strands of gold

Even with my blind eyes, I could still see

The beauty you held

An angel

Cursed  to be stuck here

It was a public high school

Like the ones you see in movies

It had the nerds, the sluts, the Goths

You showed me there was more

You could reach through the boundaries

I always wondered

If you pulled others out as well

You were an angel cursed to hell

Some days I wondered what you had done

You were such a beautiful angel

Fallen from the sky

Was this your punishment?

When your work was done,

He took you back home

I wanted you to stay

Missed you

We were on a park bench

Sun was shining again

You hair was gold

I swear I could see your wings

Your words sounded like the singing of angels

The chorus of God calling me back

Your words opened my eyes

And I could hear, feel

We sat down and you told me to look

You showed me the stories behind the faces

I could hear their whispers

Telling me their points of view

We would do this all the time

You would sit me down

We would watch the world spin

And be at peace

There was a woman shopping with her daughter

Their faces told stories of stress and depression

The single mother who had younger children at home

And the girl who had to be strong when her mother could not be

There was a man sitting in a bus stop

The bus would come, but he wouldn’t leave

He had lost his job

Did not know how to tell his wife

There was even a dog tied to a bike rack

Staring into the door of a coffee shop

Waiting…just waiting

Trusting that his owner will come back

Then you showed me how to feel

It started before our first kiss

When I still had the tendency to focus on bad things

I thought I was going to get laid

You showed me I was wrong

When I made a move

You stopped me

Helped me gain self-control

We were alone in my house

My parents were somewhere

You brought over chick flicks

It was the first time I cried

Then you took me to a museum

Showed me how to feel the meaning behind the painting

The emotion in the sculpture

Then you showed me how to make my own

I didn’t have skills

But you showed me

Anything produced my human hands  that had a purpose

Is art

I had planned a motivational speech for you

When you were in the hospital

All written down

My mother’s purple stationary

I didn’t get a chance

You took my hand

Told me everything would be fine

Smiled

I came to support you

You supported me

Even with your last breath

Nothing you did was for yourself

It rained when you were buried

The perfect clique

I remember you loved cliques

Even though I despised them

But in the rain that day

As clique as it sounds

The water seemed to wash all the emotion

Except the raw pain

I think you’d be happy to know

That I changed

After He took you back

You completed your mission

The final act of your mission

Was to teach me how to deal with loss

Another clique

I didn’t get mad like I would of before

There was no hole in the wall

Left by my fist

I opened my soul to the world

Tried to embrace the fact that you were gone

So here’s to you

My redeemer

My savior

My own fallen angel

Thank you

You changed my life

I’d like you to know

What I’m doing now

I speak to teenage delinquents

Like I could’ve been

Try to open their eyes to the world

Let them feel

The most troubled

I’ll take on a walk

Sit them on a park bench

And tell them to look

You live on in them

Your message

What you taught me

Everything you stood for

You are immortal now

Your memory will never die

As long as they continue to live

And pass on the message

I love you

Angel

Never forget me

I’ll never forget you